Please bear with me here ... I think I just need to vent this all out to feel a little better about it, and heck what is a blog for but to let it all out and find some peace and maybe someone else who shares my craziness!!!! It is like THERAPY!!!
If you have been checking in this week you will have read that Jacob has Poison Ivy and that the itching seems to be more intense through the night. So each night he has gone to bed at our normal 9:30pm covered with herb salve and then been up again around 12:30am itchy and cranky so we cover him again and usually read some from Shel Silverstein's, (twisted poetry book) Where The Sidewalk Ends (but that is another post). Taking close to an hour to get back to sleep and then REPEAT again around 3:30am and then up with Sam usually around 6ish.
Well, by Wednesday night I was exhausted, I just wanted to sleep a full night (not that I ever really sleep all night but without these hour long reading sessions each night). So as we were getting ready for bed I told Jacob that if he was able to make it all night without itching that I would take him to the co-op the next day for a treat! Seemed harmless at the moment, seemed like a really good plan to get a nights sleep. We would all be happy, I with my sleep and he with his treat.
At about 1:30am I could hear him rolling around and itching but he never said anything to me like the other nights. So I asked him if he wanted to go put some salve on and he said "yes". So as usual we headed out to the living room and I covered his legs and and scooted back into bed without saying too much. I was close behind BUT had to stop and wash my hands ... Jacob came back out and said "Do I still get me treat?"
Okay, this is when my mommy guilt kicked in and I had an awful nights sleep for the remainder of the night! What have I done... I want my children to be able to express their feeling and be open and feel comfortable to be who they are ... and here with one little bribe I had taken his pain and frustration of this awful poison ivy and sold it away for a silly little treat from the co-op and why? Just because I wanted to get a good nights sleep. What makes me think that as the parent of six children I will ever get a good nights sleep again!
Alright, so I have confessed ... and by the way last night I told Jacob that if he needed anything at all that he could wake me and guess what? He slept all night with NO ITCHING!!!!!